April 24, 2020
Be somebody, nobody thought you could be! These words resonate so much with me and so many others that it’s so easy to forget where you have been and where you want to go!
What other people perceive of me has weighed down so much on my mind thru the years, that I lost track of who I really was and who I really wanted to be.
It was more than just losing weight and changing my lifestyle on my Health Happiness Journey I was taking, but also about my “mental health” journey I was taking. Letting people judge me and me judging others was wearing me down big time.
It was time to shut all of that out of my mind if I was ever to become who I wanted to be. To share my thoughts with the world into words and really have the best meaning behind them all, I really had to focus on what was truly important in my life.
Being that support system for so many others, I realized I was putting so much emphasis on taking care of everyone else in my life, that I let myself be the last person on that list. Taking care of myself mentally and physically was so out of reach for myself, that I simply let everything fester inside of myself, that I forgot to live the life I had always wanted.
Reaching the bottom of the pit finally came for me, and I thought I saw no way out of it. My feelings finally came to the surface after years of hiding them behind fake smiles and fake laughter. I truly didn’t see any way of making myself feel better, and pulling myself out of the dark place I found myself in.
I always focused on making others feel better, loved, safe and secure, that I forgot to take care of myself in the same way. It took me a long time to focus on my mental health, and to get the support that I needed, to truly make any progress if I ever wanted to climb back out of that hole I found myself in.
I did find that light I was searching for so desperately. It didn’t happen all at once, but when the waves started crashing under me and not over me, it was such a relief to rise up and feel all those fresh thoughts coming to me. There was no stopping me from overcoming any obstacles that were still in my way.
I crushed each obstacle, one at a time, one day at a time. With help through my Faith, family and friends, I came out into the real world again with a renewed sense of hope, belonging, motivation and inspiration to share with the world!
Hence, my weekly blog was born. Writing down my thoughts and feelings to continue to heal myself and heal others became my motivation every week. I strive to continue to heal every day and hope I can aspire to do the same with just one other person.
All it takes is that one person to take your hand and show you the true person you were simply meant to be…